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I'm so tired of being hurt. there's a girl, I've known for four years at this point, originally I hit on her to no avail, for 3. friggin. years. She never said she didn't like me, in fact we spend a lot of time together talking and really getting to know each other.

I planned so much for her, I began to admittedly obsess over her, constantly thinking about what I could do for her, but when I made her a valenties present she never even looked at, when I asked her to dance at homecoming and she said no then grinded with someone else, when I asked her to prom and she took... Someone she wound up dating then breaking up with when she realized he wasn't the faithful type... I realized she wasn't feeling me.

When she was in a relationship I left her alone because I don't play like that, but then we started talking again this summer and then she invited me to a party and then we became friends as we worked on summer homework together and we just became closer, and closer, and she broke up with her boyfriend and I waited for a month or two, then I asked If she'd ever consider seeing me as more than a friend, She said "not now."

I think she meant not ever.
We genuinely became best friends, we told each other everything, but I always had this feeling that I was being used. For money, or transportation, or just for comfort. She told me she loved me and I told her but we meant it as friends.

Then she asked me out over the phone. I didn't know how to respond and stumbled over my words until I realized this probably would never happen again, and though I was content being her friend I mean, why not. Then she told me she was joking.

Now I'm asking myself why I put up with this pain, we have an interesting friendship n that we're both pretty offensive to one another but lightheartedly.
But she's always pushing the line, always doing to much, always using the weak points I've shown her to tap at me and see if I crack.