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I'm kind of becoming a minimalist since living by myself. I don't reallly have much furniture, decorations, etc., I prefer not even having a bed frame but I had to get one at my new apartment because my floor isn't flat anymore. I don't own a TV. I have no dining room, I just eat at a desk. Having a lot of stuff feels like a weight holding me down, it feels more like a burden than valuable. I keep myself entertained via the internet or going outside. Not with the "stuff" in the house.

Would you find this weird? Do you think anyone who might potentially date/be friends with me would be put off by the fact that my house is half empty? Are you a minimalist too? ;)

Time after time, I've asked myself why I never had a girlfriend, and why I kept being rejected offhand by every girl I ever attempted to approach. And the answer I kept coming up with, time and time again, was that they didn't want me- that I just wasn't good enough or special enough for those girls, or indeed for any girl, to be interested in me, no matter how caring and considerate I was. Being myself was enough to be a "nice guy"- nothing more. So I devoted all of my time and efforts to becoming worthy, being good enough and being able to prove that I was good enough.

I was already a genius (IQ of 178- still not good enough, compared to my older brother's score of 190), incredibly fit, healthy, and skilled at everything I was interested in. I've competed with future Olympic athletes, won awards for my creative writing, mathematics, artwork and MMA, taken on bullies, thugs, muggers and would-be rapists to defend strangers and won every fight. I practise meditation, and work in a public kitchen whenever I can spare the time. I founded and ran my own PLC as its CEO for more than five years, winning international acclaim and awards for my work. I've proven myself, time and time again. But I'm still getting told by everyone, including my own family and friends, that I'm "not good enough" for anyone- that no-one will ever love me, because I'm not worthy.

Nothing I could do, nothing I could ever be, was ever enough to make the grade, even with the plainest girls I could find. The only girl who ever approached me was morbidly obese (240lbs, 5'4", 16yrs old), and she told me to my face that she only wanted to go out with me "because you're EXOTIC- you're half-black and half-indian, so I can tick both off the list!" So, what's a guy worth to you? What would a guy have to possess, have to be and have to prove to you in order to be deemed "worthy" in your eyes? Can any guy in the world ever be considered "worthy" of you, or of any other woman? Or are you unattainable?

LONG STORY... sorry.

So this is a messy situation, so I heard some rumors about this girl that was dating my closest friend at the time. The rumors where about her cheating on him with multiple people... anyway things got intense when everything was out in the open and because I didn't have any real evidence/how hurt he was by all this I backed off and apologized and really stretched to make it look like I was wrong and she was innocent... but I always had doubts.

A few months later they eventually broke up and he indirectly pointed towards what I did as the reason for the breakup and our friendship never recovered (we are like distant acquaintances now when we use to be like brothers)... are friendship is almost dead.

A year after their break up she contacted me, we started talking back and forth for awhile and we then met up a week later and things got heated/we fooled around (she basically threw her self at me). I was confused by it all but was interested in pursuing but she became incredible distant/passive aggressive. I found myself becoming very frustrated by what she was saying/doing and how she became an entirely different person... But things got really bad when I ran into her with another guy & everything she said to me after that incident was just disgusting & cruel.

That guy turned out to be her new "BF" that she had been seeing before she even contacted me AND I just found out she did the same thing to another close friend of mine (throw herself at him than run away, she even said the same lines that she said to me).

So, because she destroyed a friendship of mine, cost me a job (not explaining that one) messed with the head of another one of my friends and countless other things... should I get revenge?

***there's more to this story about what she did but I've already typed enough.***