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i have never met this girl. but apparently they are friends. he told me he's friend with her and her boyfriend. apparently this guy has been drinking heavily and they have a kid together. our realtionship hasn't been as good as it could be lately. we have been fighting a lot, and i have been super depressed after having our baby, and he seems more concerened with what this girl is going through and making sure she's okay than me? i just dont get it. i mean i dont feel the need to go out of my way and message my guy friends asking about their relationship problems. im not sure if im overreacting with how i feel about it and just being insecure because of the past. at least he asked me if it was okay before hand rather than just doing it. i guess its just upsetting because i feel like he should be focusing on our relationship problems and not someone else's. he said he wanted them to stay together and he would message her boyfriend instead. i dont know am i getting worked up over nothing? we have trust issues in our relationship we are both trying to work on, and we had problems before with him being flirtiaous and romantic with another one of his girl "friends" who was actually married in the past. so it's not actually like im convinced her having a boyfriend would stop anything from getting out of hand. im trying to move on from that situation, and learn how to trust him again, but i still can't help but feel worried when it comes to these situations, can y'all blame me for feeling this or what?

I recently cheated on my boyfriend (I kissed another guy) and I told my bestfriend because I know she wouldn't tell anyone and she's the only friend I could tell who wouldn't judge me because she wouldn't have the guts to be angry at me. I regretted cheating on him immediately and I've almost told him a few times what I did but he's started to really try and work on our relationship and i'd feel guilty telling him about it. But my boyfriend found out that I cheated and it could of only happened from her telling him. She's just ruined my relationship and she wasn't even close with my boyfriend. She should've respected what I told her but she didn't. Should I be angry? Should I forgive her? I dont know what to do.