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So I've been talking to this guy for 6 months or so and he's been wanting to meet up but I kept declining due to nerves and some things he has said. I basically kind of lead him on as I was figuring out what I wanted to do. (similiar situation with another guy) He told me how he felt and he told me he did lost interest and that he doesn't want to meet up. We considered us as talking buddies online. He messaged me the other day and he was hesitant to tell me that he went on a date but he finally told me. I complimented him after he sent a selfie and was telling me that I was being cute etc. Anyways one thing lead to another
Him: Ok lets meet
Me: Ouu what changed your mind?
Him: Well you would keep asking if I didn't
Me: I don't want to pressure you, if you don't want to we don't have to
Then I said other things and he said if he didn't want to hang out he wouldn't of said yes..

So I have been talking to this guy on and off for a year. We have a few things in common. We haven't met yet and mostly its because of me. I was afraid to meet up and I kept letting him down. We live about 40 minutes from each other.

So thats partially why I haven't met him. He would give me a nickname, he would joke a couple times about marriages. He told me he wanted to be in a relationship ever since his early teen years. He said there's something special about me and is still willing to meet me after everything I did. I texted him to see what he was doing this week and I suggested meeting up and he said that he's off and that our stars aligned to meet up