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I meet up with this girl (through work) that I've been chatting to for 2 years via email. We finally met and she sent me this. Backstory, I live in London and she lives in Australia and I thought we had something special but now I'm just confused.

Here's the letter she sent me:
Hi. Here's the awkward me telling you the truth. I appreciate you taking time to have lunch with me. I'm not sure about you but I was a total ball of nerves because I didn't want to say something stupid to you with such sort time, so I guess I'll somewhat do it now. In the time I've got to know you over email it almost bothers me everyday that we can't hang out in person. It also sucks that when I did meet you that i admired everything about you and i want to know so much more but am afraid ill miss your presence. you made me feel so comfortable and I appreciate you for it. I was trying to hold back because I didn't want to get so personal because it again sucks we can't hang out in person for a long while. You're such a lovely person, and I knew it over email but the fact you were in real life made the whole thing so bitter sweet. I guess long story short, whoever gets to hang out with you in person is extremely lucky and I am extremely jealous of them.

Is she trying to say she doesn't want anything to do with me anymore in a polite way?

Apparently starting January 1 of next year, citizens of the US and 60 other countries will need to fill out a special document which will allow multiple entry over a 3 year period. Kind of like a Visa. They will know everything about you BEFORE you enter the EU. The EU claims it's for security reasons to prevent terrorists and criminals from entering Europe, but if that's the case, why don't they only require Muslim countries to do this. It also seems that people who emigrated from the EU and have citizenships of other countries, will be required to use the passports of their birthplace.

This is fucking bullshit man! Americans aren't blowing up Europeans or trafficking women, so why do WE have to this? Why didn't the EU implement this when Muslims were killing and raping them on a monthly basis? This is fucking bullshit! I think it's kind of stupid because no one is gonna admit on the application that they have a criminal record. But even if they DON'T have a record, they can still cause a crime after being issued the permit. Why are they inconveniencing innocent people. This is fucking bullshit and will cost them a lot of tourist dollars!
https://www.nytimes.com/2019/03/09/travel/americans-eu-visa-etias.html

Do you ever wonder as a human being which type of events may be going on in the stronger of the 2 worlds, the spiritual rather than the physical? I know I often do.

What type of things happen in the unseen world that the seen world can't grasp? If you were to have this knowledge first hand and entered the spiritual world, do you think your body can handle it?

Also, do you have any idea why angels and demons don't sleep? You'd think they get tired too but it seems after conversing with a spiritual oriented man about this, that there is no sleep in the spiritual realm. Do you think this is true?

Please share your special thoughts on which type of things are likely occurring in the unseen world by these spiritual creatures!

Last year, I was talking to this girl for a while, and it was going so well. But when we went on our first date, she stopped it short saying she thought she was ready to date again, but needed time to move in from her ex.
She seemed sincere and I told her I understood. But she consistently pushed me away over the next full months. I asked her a question about something and her response was very snappy and rude.
I gave up, and I unfriended her in Facebook, and that was our only method of communication. After a week, I blocked her. I was just very angry and frustrated.
About 8 months went by and I started to think I didn't react correctly. I unblocked her and requested her again. She denied it later that day.

I was understanding to a point, her ex bailed on her because he didn't want to drive 2 hours to see her and they dated for two years, but she waited a long time to tell me. I changed my shift and made special arrangements for the date that she cut short, I feel I had the right to be upset.