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to me, Im not pretty, just average, slim, small boobs, quite big butt, I wore modest clothes and virgin. most women hates me with my face and my body. I don't understand that. guys giving hint to wait until I approach them. in fact I'm extremely shy. I unable to look at guy's face much and even talk to them. which result made me being single and never had any boyfriend yet. when I made some guy friends, they would try to be since they aren't single. and people around would assume that I'm dating with my male friends. this would make awkward and they started to stopped talking to me when people did this to me. I'm straight. I feel sad for being lonely. and I ever sext with some guys a few time. especially when I have problems.

at home, mom and I are completely different. when she was young, she was a wild woman. guys kept running into her. so having a daughter like made her and stressed out because I'm single. she often insult me for being single. and keep saying that I should not scream, yell, angry at my brothers. while my brothers kept being rude to me and never wanted to do chores. my parents and my siblings making me into a maid. today's when I woke up late and I asked my brother to clean the bed, my mom kept backing him up, by saying he did some chores and and studying right now. in fact he was gaming. when I told her all that, she just doesn't believe what I say and slapped me many times. she told me that I should not be rude. and insulting me while saying that no man would like me for being like this.

I'm the only daughter in this family. my aunt kept saying that my family should treat me better. but why my own family doing this to me?

I'm thinking about giving up on the grocery store. Going there is stressful because of trying to social distance in such a crowded place, and the shelves are always half empty anyway. The risks associated with going there are obvious, so I won't list them.

My next option would be to start ordering meals to get delivered. But then I'd have to worry about all the people who touched the food while it was being made and whether they coughed into it. And there's also the delivery person, who's been having contact with different customers, and then touching my bag of food.

So I can't decide which is worse. What do you think?