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I am 25 and never had an actual girlfriend.

I had a "quasirelationship" that lasted a week, but it was awkward and she did not reciprocate feelings back. Plus, I was 19 or 20 and she was like 15 or 16 at the time. She ended up coming out of the closet as a transgender man. Now she is a dude. It is weird telling people I made out with a girl that later became a dude.

I ended up making out with her when we were friends. She was 16 and I was 20, but we were drunk. She blames me for everything that happened that day and resents me. She blames me for being hospitalized for her mental health problems, and even wrote an emotional poem on how much she resents me.

I also lost my virginity to another 16 year old girl when I was 20, but she never wanted a relationship with me. Really, she was a stranger.

I also briefly dated a girl but we were never in a relationship. I thought she was ugly and always questioned whether or not I would develop feelings for her.

That is about it.

I am only wanting a woman without a previous boyfriend or romantic history. I doubt I will find that.

Over the past couple days, I've said many things that I regret saying and here, I hope that you'll be willing to put our differences aside for a moment and take the time to read what I have to say. Things have been rough for me lately as I've been friendzoned, ghosted, and replaced by women who I had hopes for being partners with, instead, I'm still alone and it greatly hurts, nothing is more painful than seeing someone you love love somebody else. I have broken another blood vessel in my lungs from running with my dog, Buddy and being stuck in the hospital for 7 days really messed with my head, and the fact that I have to wear the PICC line hasn't helped my mental state at all. I've recieved many death threats even before all of this and while I usually shrug them off, it still doesn't brighten my day to go to my notifications and see people referring to me as a lesser creature who needs to be put down. Next, I'm very worried about gun owners in Virginia as their 2nd amendment rights are under attack and I feel powerless to go and help them given my present health situation. My failure with women combined with my health issues makes me sad and afraid that I'll be alone and cold when I take my last breath, which could come in 20 years, or 20 minutes, the uncertainty really hurts. I am not trying to excuse my actions at all, rather I'm explaining why I said what I have and hope that I can make up for the things I've said. Specifically, I'm sorry for saying that France is a "shithole country", it was a terrible thing to say and I shouldn't have said it. I'm sorry for referring to women as "wild animals", this stems from my feeling of rejection and never being loved by a woman in my life and how having my respiratory condition makes me feel inadequate and hopelessly alone. I'm sorry for saying that "liberals deserve to die", "liberals have no brain cells", and other things of that sort, this stems from Virginia. However, I am NOTcalling for peace. Do you accept?