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I've asked this question before and got no female responses. I mean, I get that sometimes there are circumstances that influence it. Maybe she was afraid to say no, etc. However I've had this happen more times than I can remember where I meet a girl, we talk, everything is 100% cool. We text back and forth, eventually we agree to meetup (sometimes her idea, sometimes mine) and then as soon as we make a plan or like literally the night before we we meet up, poof, she vanishes. I've only ever had one girl in my entire life actually follow through with a meetup. (Yes at 28 I've literally only had one date ever and it turned into a wonderful 2 year long relationship) This most recent one we've been texting for about a week. She seemed very sincere.

We were supposed to meet up at her place at 1:30pm tomorrow. So today I sent her a snap asking for her address and she read it without replying. I waited a few hours and texted her again saying "?" and then I sent one more saying: "If it makes you feel more comfortable to send it tomorrow then that's understandable." She has yet to even read those latter two texts at all and it's currently 1am. Seriously what's the point? No I didn't say anything weird or pushy or creepy and no nothing was sexual. Everything was lighthearted, friendly, a lot of joking, laughing, etc. I even told her I was going to buy some alcohol for us which she seemed extremely excited about. I just picked it up when I texted her. Already wasted the money on it.

Do you do this alot? Why? It's super freaking annoying and it's to the point where now, every time a girl agrees to a meetup, in my mind I'm already telling myself "She's gonna ghost." I wish I was exaggerating but I promise you I'm not.

I ever got to decorate my room ever, even as a kid. I always had ideas but never bothered because my mental illness made me feel like I don't deserve it, because I'm a 21 year old loser who's currently unemployed and still living at home. I also live on my mom's allowance while I have a medical billing job in the works, I feel guilty spending the money she gives me on personal bullshit even though I end up spending it all on my food addiction anyways, I keep asking her if it would be alright and she always tells me "go ahead, focus on you" and she also tells me that if she didn't give me the allowance she would just waste that money on cigarettes and pot anyway. I take really good care of my room and clean it almost daily, even in the state that it's in. I had to get rid of the old carpet because my air conditioner leaked and caused a lot of water damage and we couldn't afford to rent a wet vac, and the guy ho sold it to us ghetto rigged the place and fucked up the original wood floor with linoleum and my floor looks disgusting, I'm so upset about it. My mattress is worn out and some of the springs are poking out.
So recently I said "fuck it" and just order things for my room. I have a folding table coming today which is going to be my new desk, and I'm going to use my current desk as a dresser. Later I'm getting some plastic drawer units to go under my desk and dresser for storage. I'm also getting a new mattress in the mail too. I'm going to save up money to get new carpeting. I'm finally getting my room decorated to my liking. Hell, I might just paint it as well. It's not going to be anything too expensive and fancy though. I'm not getting a new TV or anything like that since the CRT TV I have hasn't been plugged in for over a year and I prefer my computer and phone.

Do I have the right to upgrade my room?