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TLDR; Want to run off to another country without saying anything and don't know if I should talk to at least one person or not.

I've been thinking about this for a long time, years infact. I genrealy hate my life as it is now, my family, friends, future and everything I see when I wake up in the morning. I am depressed but the thing is I think about this more when I am happy, laughing and not thinking about anything bad. Picking up everything I can with my two arms and running off to a new country, just the thought puts me in a good mood.

The only person who knows about this is my best friend, I tell her everything even my romantic feeling toward her. To be honest she's the only person that does make me happy enough to want to stick around but the past year we've faught and made up on some big things. For the most part that's left me constantly being afraid she'll abandon me with out a word... like she did earlier this year. I told her I still have romantic feeling towards her, I'm afraid of her abandoning me again and that my goal is to fix our friendship while seeing if anything romantic is possible. This is going kinda meh... obviously I haven't told her that I'll stick around if anything good happens between us, I don't actually think she knows that I still think about this.