Search Results: self harm

Hi guys, so it don't have any money and I don't have anyway of making money unless it's donating plasma and on Friday I had to go to the emergency room because I fainted twice and had an extremely low blood pressure. I really don't know what to do. I hate not having any money. I don't have anymore bus passes and my parents told me I'm not allowed to donate. My mom won't allow me to get a job unless it's Amercorps and there's housing of some sort. If she thinks a program is too independent I can't go because her and my father say I'm mentally stunted, retarded, slow and I'm incapable of making my own decisions or taking care of myself. Basically I'm not even allowed to work alone because I'm too stupid and too much like a 6 year old to function normally in society. there's no record that I'm mentally retarded, I wasn't diagnosed with mental retardation or anything related to being mentally handicapped or unable to provide for myself. I was diagnosed with ADHD and depression, not mental retardation but my parents always enforced that I'm immature and I have the mind of a 6 year old. Doctors have talked to my mother about putting me in a mental hospital or therapy since I showed signs of depression and I unfortunately have a record of self harm. I'm a messed up human being. I screwed up so much and it's hard to go on everyday. I'm actually a really sad, deeply disturbed person who carries around a lot of shame and guilt.


In short, my mom chooses what programs I can join, what jobs I can accept, My dad gave me a 8:00 pm curfew and I'm stuck in the house most of the time. I told my mom what I wanted to do and she says no and is trying to choose a program for me it's been months and she still hasn't enrolled me into anything. My dad refuses to take me to go get my permit exam done. He says he'll take me but at the last minute says he's too busy and never does.