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to me, Im not pretty, just average, slim, small boobs, quite big butt, I wore modest clothes and virgin. most women hates me with my face and my body. I don't understand that. guys giving hint to wait until I approach them. in fact I'm extremely shy. I unable to look at guy's face much and even talk to them. which result made me being single and never had any boyfriend yet. when I made some guy friends, they would try to be since they aren't single. and people around would assume that I'm dating with my male friends. this would make awkward and they started to stopped talking to me when people did this to me. I'm straight. I feel sad for being lonely. and I ever sext with some guys a few time. especially when I have problems.

at home, mom and I are completely different. when she was young, she was a wild woman. guys kept running into her. so having a daughter like made her and stressed out because I'm single. she often insult me for being single. and keep saying that I should not scream, yell, angry at my brothers. while my brothers kept being rude to me and never wanted to do chores. my parents and my siblings making me into a maid. today's when I woke up late and I asked my brother to clean the bed, my mom kept backing him up, by saying he did some chores and and studying right now. in fact he was gaming. when I told her all that, she just doesn't believe what I say and slapped me many times. she told me that I should not be rude. and insulting me while saying that no man would like me for being like this.

I'm the only daughter in this family. my aunt kept saying that my family should treat me better. but why my own family doing this to me?

I've been quarantined in my house for a little bit now, im not sure how long exactly since every day just feels the same as the next. im only 14. I've been to walmart twice. i have an amazing immune system. my mom won't let me go anywhere because we live with my grandma. she almost 70 and has health issues. but, i have depression (not fake 'depression' but actual diagnosed depression. feels weird that i even need to clarify that but tumblr kids think depression is edgy and quirky now. so.) and i hate being alone. i guess im not technically alone, as im at home with my grandma, mom & brother, but i can only tolerate them for so long. i love them but family can get annoying... i dont even know why were "quarantined", since apparently you only need to quarantine if you been around other people (crowds). i haven't for a while, i went to walmart but barely anyone was there.

i just feel lonely and i feel super overwhelmed when im stuck in the same place. i dont even have my phone right now, im typing this on my laptop. i just rlly miss my friend and want to see her. mom says if i go to her house, my grandma could die. i get what she's saying, and she's right. exposing my grandma to the virus could increase the risk of her getting sick and dying, but she's really clean and basically just stays in her room all day. my friend is a clean freak and so are her parents, and thats just how they usually are. its probably worse now that there's this worldwide hysteria. i just think i should be allowed to go to my friend's house. I've been home with no friends to even speak to for a while now and i have no one to talk to.

i just think theyre being overdramatic. my grandma would be safer at her sister's house anyway, bc her sister never goes anywhere and is stocked up on stuff, and is also a clean freak. plus then gma wouldn't be around a nasty 7 year old, not to mention me and my really clean mom. they think i just dont want my gma around but thats not true, i just am dying to see my friend.