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He broke up with his ex in 2018 but still talks to her sometimes and still has feelings for her. Him and I just broke up February 2020 and we have a baby together. I left him and moved after his abuse etc but he dumped me after I left. His family dislike me and vice versa.

Here's the lyrics of the song he posted on Facebook.

Nobody wanna see us together
But it don't matter
'Cause we gon' fight
Oh, yes, we gon' fight
Believe we gon' fight
Fight for our right to love, yeah



Got every right to wanna leave
Got every right to wanna go
Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no mo'
You don't even have to call
Even check for me at all
'Cause the way I've been actin' lately has been off the wall
Especially towards you
Puttin' girls before you
And they watchin' everything I been doin' just to hurt you
Most of it just ain't true
And they won't show you
How much of a queen you are to me
And why I love you, baby

He mistreated me, disrespected me, talked to other girls including his ex who he talked shit to about me and physically abused me. I up and left him after I gave birth to our child. His family and friends don't like me and my family doesn't like him either.

Here are the lyrics


Nobody wanna see us together
Nobody thought we'd last forever
I feel I'm hopin and prayin
Things between us gon get better

Got every right to wanna leave
Got every right to wanna go
Got every right to hit the road
And never talk to me no more
You don't even have to call
Even check for me at all
Cause the way I've been acting lately has been off the wall
Especially towards you
Putting girls before you
And they watching everything I been doing just to hurt you
Most of it just ain't true
And they won't show you
How much of a queen you are to me
And why I love you, baby

The first question above was for the poll.

This second question is a bonus one so feel free to not respond to it if you don't feel comfortable. It's just asking for personal advice. Thank you in advance to all who vote/reply.

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I have worried that friendships don't form in my life because maybe some can tell I was abused growing up and they don't want to get closer.

I want to try to find out Why there seems to be a barrier stopping friendships from forming (a condition which has been present for many years now and is really taking its toll).

I was told by a professional that I have a flat affect: its when your face during interation or conversation with someone shows no emotion or change and supposedly this is disconcerting for the conversation partner to witness, to the point that they will not want to talk to you in the future or think that you are emotionless or psychopathic.

Internally (especially in private) I am emotional, but when in front of people there usually an energy drainage in procession: As much as I feel attached or caring towards people, especially certain ones, quickly I lose energy around them.

I also just do not want to be open, and this is instinctive. I have so many memories of being harassed and feeling so low down growing up from childhood and all the way into high school. Not sure if that is typical for everyone else but that feeling of not belonging, fear, and feeling like something was always wrong with me and needed to be changed to fit in, and never succeeding at fitting in defines my period of growing up. Not only was I facing bullies in peers but my caregivers tore me down too.

So the question here was if people can sense I was hurt and broken down growing up and if this is something that is making them not be attracted to friendship with me.