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You are single but saw yourself in a situation where you need to have kids now if you want them at all (35ish) can't wait for love anymore because you're getting too old and it's risky to wait any longer.

Two men agreed to have kids with you, which of the two would you choose? __________________________________________________________________________________

Guy 1. You know him for many years
He Pretended to love you and made you believe he loved you but then broke your heart and said he didn't love you and he is sorry he lied. He only decided to be honest now because he feels bad things are happening to him because of 'karma'. so he wants to be honest and agrees to have a baby with you now and wants to try again with you (you are very attracted to him but he's not attracted to you)

he is Tall, Light skin, Dark hair, brown eyes, VERY fit attractive body and very handsome
he doesn't love you but he agrees to have a kid with you.
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Guy 2. Nice guy who is pretty much a stranger but he is nice and have known him for a while maybe a year or 2 but only talked friendship wise.

He is cute, he has gray beautiful eyes, but he is 5'7" and is average fit body but not muscular. He says he doesn't know if he can love you or not because he doesn't know you well yet but he agrees to have a baby with you now and see how life works.

which of these two would you choose if you had to!

See I've made some bad choices, and yes I view myself a bit negatively about that, I was curious if I spelled out what I view as some of my worse points to do with... Well, getting myself a boyfriend. If anyone on here would be willing to put that aside or not:

So I lost my vcard at 18 not long after I started uni, I wanted to get it over and done with. The first time typically hurts but at the same time I kept getting this echo of what if I get raped I wanted my first time done on my own terms. So I basically shackled up with the first guy who shown interest in me, it was mediocre wasn't good could have been a lot worse. There was a couple of almost times where I touched a D.

I didn't have sex again until a year later, guy 2 introduced me to sado/machism and made me realise just how much I loved pleasing a guy. A few months after that just before my 20th I had sex with a guy whom my friends told me I should get with, two quite toxic friends.

A few months after that I had sex with a guy at a party, he was the first guy I did multiples with, it lasted about two weeks and I stopped it when I realised just how little he actually cared. 6 months later new years and got wasted woke up next to a guy.

2 months later guy 6, and this is when I got a bit carried away. I'm pretty sure I was depressed I was at the height of a toxic friendship and I lived hours away from home. I felt super lonely and now I wasn't having sex for pleasure but rather comfort. I love my cuddles so I figured: give sex get cuddles, I did everything I could to get comfort and thought it's better than drugs or drinking all the time. Though at that time I smoked pot and drank lots. 3 months later the guys at work offered coke and thought why not maybe it'll make this feeling go away. Guy 7 was married, yes I knew and yes it was a little forced but I could have said no and I didn't and yes I'm pretty sure he would have stopped. Then in the space of 2 months I slept with guys 7-11.