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I had a wonderful job, life was fantastic. Then work shut down, money didn't come in, I have to be a teacher for my kids, and cook differently and keep myself taken care of somehow too.. I didn't sleep til 5am every night because I could not comprehend why I needed to go to sleep. I ate more than usual, high carb and starches; assuming for comfort and a distraction. Couple of months go by and things are opening. My job tells me there's no job for me to return to. Another month goes by while I drift off and ignore stuff so I can gain some clarification and closure. The world is fighting and people are frustrated.. Then I decide to use some money in a risky way. I pay for some tickets & courses that are not school related but will guarantee me a pension and get my life back on track. Resorted to social media for human connections, as I'm watching innocent people be filled with brainwashing information. So, I turn it off and get outside to nature and the ocean because there's so much clarity when Im there. I went every day possible that I could find within myself. Hoping that if I created a phantom routine, that'd I'd wake up and get sh*t done. Life goes back on, with lots of society-culture curves. I'm exhausted and impacted by the last while, it's clouded my inner self. ***Please keep this post uplifting and forward focused in a positive outlook***