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Hi guys. So this happened a year ago when i was 18. My 23 years old female cousin along with my aunt came over from a different country, stayed at our family house and i was to give my bed to them. Since i didn't have any friends and i got along pretty well with her, i would always talk to her. I am a pretty playful person and dont think before committing actions (you can say im a little kid at that time and very immatured), when i see her sit on the sofa i would my wrap my arms around her, when im bored i would knock on her door, come in go on the bed and started tickling her, slapping her on the face mutiple times and wrestling with her. And the whole house would rock. She kind of try to resist but ended up doing the same thing to me. This kind of became like a daily basic thing (not all the time). She did got angry once so i stopped doing all of this because i went too far with slapping very hard on the face and it was me who starts it. I thought it was pretty fun and she was like a sister/best friends to me i could say. But now thinking back to it, im like "omg why did i do that?" , "will she be traumatized now?", "was i mentally perverted at that time?". These thoughts in my head make me feel disgusting and makes me think if i did any harm with her thinking.

What do you guys think?

In the beginning he use to always message me, I was in college working and just trying to help out my family, He was always there for me and I gradually started to fall in love with him. The last time I talked to him he told me he wasn't ready and we got into a huge argument where I just talking to him completely. He confused to him family that he was in love with me but does not show it, I love him and I just want to hear it from my own ears. He doesn't talk to me at all and he would ignore me when I try to become his friend again. I am very close to the point that I am just going to move on because his actions are not reflecting what he is say. But I think i am overreacting as well since HE DID tell me that he wasn't ready for me. Which I dont understand how you can lead someone on and then say that and try to keep them around as long as you can. My heart and mind is confused I love him and want him to know that I just dont want to feel stupid for something that was just a game. Oh yeah andn I would like to mention he ignore me majority because I went on a date with another guy 3 months after we said we should date other people. And the funny thing is that he is dating a girl that i am aware about due to her writing on all his post on facebook and yes i am jealous. I want him to live his life because I want to build a foundation first but sometime i want to build it with him in my life