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I've always had to deal with social anxiety, and when my best friend of 8 years asked me out I said yes, but then my anxiety spiked up so badly because of the expectations that I thought he had of me (He didn't he was the same as always) that I broke up with him.
After a couple of months without talking, we started talking again and decided to get back together, but the same happened and we both agreed to break up.
His friends (that were also my friends at the start of this) were fed up with the situation and took his side and stopped talking to me, at first I thought that they simply were better friends with him, but latter on when he and I started talking again he said that those friends would kill him if they knew we were talking, so we started dating again in secret (I was better because I graduated and moved out of my parents house) and we lasted longer than we usually did, but then his friends found out about us, and a week later he broke up with me over text (I have to say that one of those friends told him "you should have fucked her and left").
We never talked again, but now I miss him, and he didn't really did anything bad to me, he was really sweet and all that, but his friends were idiots who brainwashed him, I know that they have some points, because we broke up because of me two times before, but we were okay so I don't know
What should I do?

This was over a year ago