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I am 25 and never had an actual girlfriend.

I had a "quasirelationship" that lasted a week, but it was awkward and she did not reciprocate feelings back. Plus, I was 19 or 20 and she was like 15 or 16 at the time. She ended up coming out of the closet as a transgender man. Now she is a dude. It is weird telling people I made out with a girl that later became a dude.

I ended up making out with her when we were friends. She was 16 and I was 20, but we were drunk. She blames me for everything that happened that day and resents me. She blames me for being hospitalized for her mental health problems, and even wrote an emotional poem on how much she resents me.

I also lost my virginity to another 16 year old girl when I was 20, but she never wanted a relationship with me. Really, she was a stranger.

I also briefly dated a girl but we were never in a relationship. I thought she was ugly and always questioned whether or not I would develop feelings for her.

That is about it.

I am only wanting a woman without a previous boyfriend or romantic history. I doubt I will find that.

1. Am 25 years old
2. 5 feet 6 inches in height
3. Overweight at the moment weighing in the 220s (working on losing the weight)
4. On social security disability and unemployed
5. Lives at home still
6. I am a self taught amateur programmer at the moment
7. I am enrolled in uni and start classes on Tuesday
8. I lean conservative politically.
9. I voted for Donald Trump and will again
10. I am southern (come with the accent and everything)
11. I have Aspergers and mental health issues (they are improving overtime)
12. I have a criminal conviction of stalking and harassment (I served 3 years probation for it)
13. I have been hospitalized over 13 times in my life involuntarily
14. I still crush on high school girls
15. I am a loving, giving person who would fall madly in love when I do
16. I am not a virgin. I lost my virginity at age 20 to a 16 year old girl who was also a virgin. She never wanted anything to do with me after that.
17. I never had an actual girlfriend. While I am not a sexual virgin, I am a relationship virgin.

I seek the following:
I seek an attractive girl 17 or older (but probably at least 18) who has never had a romantic bond before. Meaning no previous boyfriends or even male best friends whom she was close to and had feelings for in her youth. That is the main requirement. Essentially, I want a girl that has never had her first love before. This has nothing to do with her sexual past, but everything to do with who she shared her heart with before.

I prefer (but not necissarily a requirement) a shy girl. A girl who is submissive and cute would be nice.