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I get hurt and upset about the tiniest and most stupid stuff that is related to him and my relationship with him. he knows this. I thought by now he knew better than lying to me about something like this. I don't know what to do. at first I was deeply hurt, mad, and upset. right now im just laughing at myself for believing in him too much. im thinking about ending this shit with him but I've always been an awfully impulsive person with countless regrets because of it. so right now im trying to think about it sanely lol.

its only when im at home and I tell him im going to go to bed already but really I just plan to watch movies, eat, listen to music, stare blankly at the wall with my dog, and do nonsense things around my place. when we're both still awake we always talk- wether through texting or calling. except when either of us have to do something and give each other the time we need. although I love him and very much enjoy talking to him, the need for plenty of alone time is my necessity. somehow I can't tell him the truth- that I dont want to talk because I need to be alone to waste time. its been happening for quite a while now. sometimes I think he'd suspect saying I've slept for too long or something. its the only time I lie, since im a night owl and he sometimes thinks I sleep early. is this so horrible?