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Back in 1993, my mom and dad took my sister to a hospital because she was cutting herself. She was denied admission to the hospital and the next day they found her overdosed on sleeping pills and there was a note that said "Dear mom and dad, FUCK YOU!!!". So when I was going through depression as a teenager, they decided to send me to a hospital and lied to get me admitted. So I disowned them for it and when my mom was diagnosed with cancer and asked me to visit her I told her to fuck off and rot.

I been talking with this girl for about 2 weeks. We originally met up on OKC and later trade phones, with a solid week of WhatsApp conversations. Yesterday me and her met, we had a great dinner but the Date got cut short as something came up and she had to cut the date short.

I wasn't too critical and as a person I understand things do pop-up at unexpected moments. Anyways she gotten home and send me a message saying she enjoyed herself, she had fun and apologized for cutting the date short.

What surprised me is today. Today it seems like she is avoiding me, she hasn't been as active on WhatsApp as she usually is, and by usually I mean we text back and forth for hours on, like 4-5 hours easy. Today however it was barely 6 messages, and what's been surprising me is that she pop-up Online yet doesn't read my replies to her previous messages that where send hours ago.

At this moment I feel pretty bummed out as I don't know what I could have done wrong and to be honest everything seemed to be going well. I kind of hate myself since I tend to dwell on little things and over think, leading to more attempts to breakdown a scenario which is followed by more overthinking, which essentially leads to me depressing myself.

Yeh I know one day isn't a big deal, but again it doesn't seem like her regular self. After 2 weeks of constant chatting and then after our date, bam. I don't know if she is pushing me away for whatever reason or simply decided against dating me. But what strikes me is that we discussed how both of us care about honesty and being upfront. Which would mean that if you don't believe you will "click" with someone you can tell them "off" in a nice matter, instead of just killing of contact with them.

Well I personally will wait till Monday, if this continues I guess she no longer wants to keep in touch, and just does not want to tell me to "fuck off" upfront, vs. pushing me aside with isolation.