Search Results: father smoking

I raise in domestic abuisve home ( verbally an physically). I never had a connection with my mother nor father but I always seem to connect with my neighbors or teachers. When I 15 ( hurricane Katrina happen) I was relocated to live in Kentucky an there were a lot of teen moms. I was highly jealous of ( the thought of being able to create something special an so unique) them I was told at very young age I wouldn't be able to have children if I did try my child or I may die. Well years pass an a lot have change my mother an father divorce, my mom immediately started dating again, sister was acting out in school ( smoking ) it was hectic but one thing that stayed consent with me was having a baby. I starting doing research an going to specialist to see if there any possible way I could have a child. Well there was a way a sperm donor but I didn't like that idea even though ( i grew up with my father he was not a active father in my life) knowing what its like to wonder when is your dad coming or does he love me. I didn't want to continue the cruse. Now my obgyn says because I'm in my prime (24) it's better to try now than to wait. I'm just afraid that if it work I will continue the fatherless cruse?