Search Results: is he pretending to be gay

I have never liked a guy for his personality and I can easily find some guys attractive.
I don't want commitment and I like sleeping around.
People on here have accused me of being a guy pretending to be a woman.
I'm just as feminine as a typical gay guy.
I can be just as dramatic as a gay guy.
I've been told that I'm immature and I don't act like ladylike.
If I was born as man, I would've been a gay guy and been happy with it.

Devon is 23 years old. he's a people's pleaser and always wants to be perfect and do the right thing. In middle school and high school his parents always pressured him to study, work and take extra classes after school. He had no friends, no girlfriend, and barely any hobbies because all he did was study, work, take tests and study extremely hard to get accepted into college. He left with a GPA of 3.7. He was extremely depressed about it and his dad told him he was an ugly failure. Devon hasn't cried since he was 9 years old because his parents told him men and boys are not supposed to cry and encouraged him to suppress his emotions and study hard for college. Devon often bottled up his emotions and pretended to be happy in public. His best friend died, dog died, he was bullied, failed tests, broke his arm, ruined his car but he did everything he could not to cry. His parents also made him join sports teams and beat him for cuddling and hugging another guy. Devon hated sports, he loved cooking, sewing and building things he wanted to make dresses but his parents said that was gay and disgusting. At 23 he graduated out of college with a Bachelor's degree and found out he was 189 thousand dollars in debt. Finally he had a mental breakdown. he screamed at the top of his lungs and sobbed/ screamed uncontrollably for four hours straight. He never felt so terrible and the pain was almost unreal. He couldn't talk for days and tried to overdose on pills. He was rushed to the hospital and his parents were horrified. Devon cried for another two hours, he never felt so terrible a day in his life. Devon also noticed he cried so hard that he used the bathroom on himself twice in front of doctors.

He couldn't get a job with the Bachelor's degree he had, so he moved in back with his parents and got a job working at Walmart making only 8 dollars an hour.