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Basically! I'm not a skinny girl (no hate to girls who are) & I like to flaunt my curves. My tummy has never & never will be flat. I would have to do some extreme exercising & nearly starve myself to achieve that. Which is just fucking stupid & I refuse to do that. Anyway! I went out with my boyfriend the other night. I wore a body-hugging sweater dress & some killer gray knee high boots. I was feeling GREAT. I was strutting like nobody's fucking business. Then all my confidence faltered when some idiot walked up to my boyfriend & I with this: "Oh wow! Congrat, what are you having?" *gesturing to my stomach as well* Then when he saw my clearly shocked & angry face, he simply said, "Ohhh... from back there... you looked like you got a bump." All I could muster was to flip my hair, walk away & shout "THANKS!" till he shut up. I literally wanted to just cry. I felt so fucking pretty that night & some wrongly chosen words broke me down. Is it just me being crazy or is it SO RUDE to comment on a woman's "bump"? Because you can't always tell, OBVIOUSLY, who's actually pregnant. UNLESS you have a flat fucking tummy of course! So I feel like, it's best not to even say anything at all. Save yourself from looking like a complete douchebag & hurting a "fat" chick's feelings.

Does anyone here ever spend a few weeks taking care of their health, then suddenly stop caring? For example, let's say you eat daily vitamins, get 30-60 minutes of exercise, and eat whole foods. This goes on for a few weeks. Then, you find yourself in a stressful situation and stop caring. You have the desire to stop taking vitamins, stop exercising, and sometimes to stop eating. The only foods you eat are bad for you.

Without all the specifics of what I just said, does anyone feel that way? Where you're perfectly healthy, then you throw it all away and drive your own self into the ground? No sleep, no food, and nothing to lift your mood?

I currently feel this way. I want to starve myself until I pass out, but I'm scared of doing badly in school. That's the only reason I eat. In the summer I was perfectly healthy, but now I feel as if I'm hurting myself. Probably the worst part of this is that I don't care. I don't care about my grades, my beloved hobbies, my health, or anything at all. I've dealt with depression though, and this is not it.