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So on dec 2021 after almost 1.5 years of inactivity i went to the gym. On that particular day i was skinny fat almost (20 percent body fat) so i opted for cutting and thought to get my abs fast without losing much muscle mass. Now it's almost 2022 feb , I have 15-16 percent body fat and further calorie deficit seems to make me a lot thinner. I promised myself to get clean strong abs in few months when i began with it but rn i think it's tough as i look very thin and obviously can't make more muscle mass. So should I cut for a month more to complete what i aimed for or start to bulk straight away so i can grow bigger?
Any genuine help is welcomed. :). The pic below is what i look right now.

Is it worth it to work out and lift to the point your exhausted DAILY and it makes me so tired i can't even function at work or school to have a 6 pack and giant muscles? Working out is literally ruins my day every day and i hate it, I hurt constantly, I see these other guys in my school that are buff as shit and they are full of energy, I feel brain dead, Even right now every part of my body aches constantly, IM ONLY 15😭 I have gotten more depressed and lifting has just made me more stressed because of it hurting and aching so much i can't even lift my damn arm, Do i have to do this to get a girlfriend? Because i heard women only date guys with big muscles and shit, Im still small😭 not to mention starving myself to be lean, I have not had a full belly in mONTHS and im hungry constantly just to have abs.