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I'm 21 and just had my first boyfriend. Which was also my first kiss. I'm going to college, I have a fantastic job, a family that loves me, I'm beautiful, I'm very responsible and independent. But I want something I don't have: a boyfriend. I'm not looking for marriage or to have kids but I just want experience love. I want to know what it feels like and what it feels like to have someone love me back. My sister just dated her 2nd boyfriend and 4 years later they're still together and in love. I'm not jealous of her, but the way they look at each other and hold each other, that's what I want. To fall in love.
My first boyfriend told that he wanted to have meaningful relationship with me and I was happy to hear I was finally going to get it. But instead he just used me and played a cruel prank on me. I was really devastated. I know I can have relationships later but, falling in love I want to experience.

When Alarah met Xander, it was brief, however with each day passing, the more they saw one another and the more their eyes lit up in each others presence.
Xander was rather an unhappy man in his "marriage" even though he loved his wife, however.

Alarah brought out the very best in him. Made him feel confident and desired. How attractive that is, in a woman, and boy did he know it. However, "sex" was his main goal. So he asked her if she had wanted a one-night stand but her response was always a suttle "no". Alarah was definitely attracted but she learned how to respect him and his wife and though she wanted him she had to stand up and put her foot down.

Of all qualities, Alarah admired Xander's honesty, and him being straightforward, his protective instincts and this made her start falling for him, very quickly. They almost reached the follow through with the one night stand but they both talked themselves out of it.

It was on a steady night, Xander allowed himself to kiss her and she allowed herself to kiss him back.
The kiss started very slowly and as their lips pressed against one another, a few seconds went by, and Xander became excited. He moaned a "mhm" and shook his head in approval. To at which the kiss ended.

At that point, Xander lost all control.
He had to kiss her again, as he did and wanted to take her to bed. "Come, on." he urged. Yet Alarah, still denied his effort.
"Not, yet." she spoke softly.

The nights after became the change.
They no longer looked at each other, smiled or flirted with one another. Their silence spoke volumes Alarah no longer understood.

As for Xander, he allowed himself to come over one time to give her company knowing nothing were to happen. A deep story was told that brought guilt and sadness within him, he had to leave.

Alarah wonders, on her own now. As she realizes everything is different. He no longer comes over, he no longer really speaks to her through social media, he has become absent.