Search Results: the urge to look at guys

We’ve been dating for about 6 months and everyday I’ve been feeling even more repulsed by the thought of him touching me, he has mannerisms as such like my step-dad and that’s just gross in itself - which clicked whilst in Amsterdam with him about a week back & we didn’t even hold hands in public I wanted to pretend as though we were friends and I felt bad..

He always says I think he’s weak which I didn’t at least not as much until he said it and now I’m beginning to think it..
I’m used to independent, strong and physically fit men who don’t let me walk all over them and I get a lot of these types approaching me on the daily, and physically the guy isn’t, he can’t dominate me and it just makes me cringe when he tries but at first I thought that didn’t matter.. don’t get me wrong he’s great in so many other ways of which I haven’t listed he’s just completely opposite to what I’m used to and now I’m beginning to feel as though its a bad thing

He makes me feel past it even tho I’m 22 partially cause he doesn’t compliment my style (I don’t mean saying things to compliment me btw) and it’s quite bad for my anxiety cause it puts us on opposite sides of the spectrum when we go out we look odd together and I’ve been trying to ignore it since being with him I’ve put on so much weight too

It’s difficult to end things with him cause he’s best friends with two of my flat mates and I’m worried he’ll start spilling things about our relationship and I’ll be isolated in my own home but I also don’t want to hurt him

Now summer is here I have a strong urge to do anything that will get me away from this situation, and I’m worried as to what I’ll do, I feel so alone & trapped in this relationship I don't know what to do anymore?