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So my boyfriend has been my best friend for 5 years. In high school we dated for about 2 years. Then we broke up for 2 years. Now we've been dating for almost a year again. Best friends through it all, and friends with benefits for a while.

But I just found out I'm high school he cheated on me for a few months before breaking up with me. And he then basically dated the girl for that summer when we were broken up. They were just talking, hanging out, and kissing on the cheek. This girl became my friend once we broke up and was like the main one I leaned on and who supported me through the break up, me never knowing. I suspected he was with another girl but he would never tell me who. After all this time I just found out this month, and we talked through it and everything. I can forgive them, but I don't know if I can get over it and forget it. It sucks bc this relationship we've had now has been amazing, much better than when we were young and dumb, we've been really happy and healthy. I don't want to give that up for something that happened a long time ago, but I can't trust him now (i already have trust issues from childhood trauma!) And i don't want to be that toxic girlfriend who always goes through his phone, i hate that. But that's how I found out, because I suspected it still and it still hurt not knowing and he let me go through his phone so I found out. But since he lied to me for so long it just makes me sick to think it barely affects him now and he never would've told me. Also back then, they broke it off bc he never stopped loving me and realized he never liked her like that he'd just think of me, and he broke his heart talking to other guys. So I don't know. What would you do in my situation?

I met this guy through a mutual friend of mine ( actually it is her cousin ) . Let call him Wayne ( im protecting his name )
So wayne and I first met we both had a so. He had a girlfriend and I had a boyfriend. Well one day his girlfriend ended it with him because she didn't want to work it out and that same day but different time my boyfriend ended it with me because he only wanted to stay friends.

Well here is what been happening :
* I took his keys and he smiled about it
* He teased me with his keys saying here come get it when I'm short
* He let me have his keys till it was time for him to leave
* He bought me a shirt
* He told me I was sexy in the shirt
* We were sitting on the couch and he put his hat on my head and said I look sexy
* He called me beautiful
* We would kiss , hold hands , make love , etc
* The night that his girlfriend and my boyfriend broke up with us is the night he said I really like u and he loved it when I put my head on his shoulder and his cousin ask when we were sitting on the couch if it feels right and he said very.
* He would tickle me
* He always make sure I eat and if I don't he get very pissed because he doesn't want to see me hungry
* He always is protecting me and say I will never let anyone hurt u
* That is just a few good things.. 😊😊

Here is the other things :
* Told me that he was back with his ex and that I need to stop trying to get to him to date me when I did nothing wrong.
* Told me that he will never date someone that he doesn't know
* It will take years for him to get to know me
* When I was in the kitchen he called his ex on the phone saying hi wifey. I'm guessing he is trying to make me jealous. Good luck on that 😉
* That. I need to loose feelings for him
* That is just a few other things 😔😔😔🤔🙄
* He said he doesn't want to be with me he only want to be with his ex and he doesn't like me that way.

Soo I'm super confused on EVERYTHING actions one then words another