As a teen I was constantly the new "kid", i was shy fat acne faced awkward nerdy virgin who was also very depressed, popular boys would talk to me just to bitch about me. Ask me out only for there friends to shit talk my body infront of whole class... twice... at 2 different schools when there were fatter girls. Of course I had friends but most of them were not genuine. Anyway I put myself together after a failed attempted suicide at 17 then by 20, lost weight, no acne, contact lenses learn makeup how to dress and focus on school + myself im 22 now with a job apartment, car.
Please explain to me why the same guys who bothered me endlessly are now interested (liking my pictures)? Or why people are nicer to me strangers smile/stare complement, don't ignore me? I thought it would feel good if people were nicer but I feel sick its a world of a difference. Im still a virgin because now I have another problem my dates are only interested in sex/looks at least when I was "fat" people tried to talk to me.
Anyway, what hurts me the most of this and why I'm on this "rant" is because a childhood guy friend of mine recently started showing interest in me. His always been nice to me like a friend but most of his ex girlfriends at school didn't like me, I've always had a crush on him but he wanted to stay 'friends' as teens even though we got along more. Fast forward since high school, we talk now and then but out of the blue 2days ago "he wants to try with me". I've been crying a lot about it because I've been bottling up a lot of societies bullcrap and gone through a lot for just existing, havnt replied and just wanted to vent my frustrations am I wrong for thinking these people are shallow and most men born after 1900s are trash because of my bad experiences? Why should I believe otherwise? I've never met a guy like mr darcy who genuinely is more interested in what i have to say to see that im the same "weirdo" inside?
Please explain to me why the same guys who bothered me endlessly are now interested (liking my pictures)? Or why people are nicer to me strangers smile/stare complement, don't ignore me? I thought it would feel good if people were nicer but I feel sick its a world of a difference. Im still a virgin because now I have another problem my dates are only interested in sex/looks at least when I was "fat" people tried to talk to me.
Anyway, what hurts me the most of this and why I'm on this "rant" is because a childhood guy friend of mine recently started showing interest in me. His always been nice to me like a friend but most of his ex girlfriends at school didn't like me, I've always had a crush on him but he wanted to stay 'friends' as teens even though we got along more. Fast forward since high school, we talk now and then but out of the blue 2days ago "he wants to try with me". I've been crying a lot about it because I've been bottling up a lot of societies bullcrap and gone through a lot for just existing, havnt replied and just wanted to vent my frustrations am I wrong for thinking these people are shallow and most men born after 1900s are trash because of my bad experiences? Why should I believe otherwise? I've never met a guy like mr darcy who genuinely is more interested in what i have to say to see that im the same "weirdo" inside?
