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My ex wants me back. But here's the thing. There has been a lot of info that has surfaced about him after our breakup that is making me feel like he isn't a genuine guy who is all about me.
- he said he doesn't like being single (this made me feel like he just feels bad about not having a girl, not able losing me in specific. Does this mean that if he was to get some other girl, he wouldn't give a f about me?)
- he knew I had lung failure and that I kept it from him during the relationship since I wanted him to move on so that if something did happen to me, he wouldn't go through the pain. Yet when i told him after the break up, he ignored me instead of comforting me. Does that mean he doesn't care?
- his guy friends told me that talks to tons of girls now and is a player (although during our relationship, he was all about me and no other girl)
- He accused me of making fake accounts and texting his cousins and friends to keep tabs on him (which is not true)
- he disrespected me a lot after the breakup verbally
- he talked shit about me behind my back

---- but now, he apologizes and feels bad, saying that he has always loved me and is not a player and only talks to the other girls as friends. I'm afraid he's just saying that to not be single again. Should I take him back?

My husband's mother died about 4 months ago. This might sound cold but I felt indifference to be honest. I didn't feel sad (no tears at all) nor happy, just about the same when a stranger dies.

However, I'm faking sadness and being supportive to him at this moment. Here is a brief reason for my indifference:

The lady treated me like absolute garbage for nearly 6 years of our entire relationship (before we got engaged) and would complain to others about me nonstoppable 24/7. I was considered worse than servant to her. Then 2 months before he proposed (late 2016), all of the sudden she wanted to make peace with me. I only accepted it for his sake but never really forgot nor forgave her. I still hated her and never trusted her either.

I believe there are some things that even if the person is sorry, the damage is still done, esp if the torment lasted for years. So does this make me a bad person for not caring about her death?

I want a relationship with a guy that's:
1. 75% evil, 25 % good
2. Always tells the truth even if it's mean AF
3. Cold like me but loyal AF to the ones that deserve it.
4. Being real not a fake ass like 99.99% of people.
5. Stand up for himself and the ones that deserve it.
6. DON'T bring up excuses for anyones or his own behavior. Reasons are fine but not excuses.
7. Have been through something really hard otherwise we can't have that connection.
8. Only talks when you need.
9. Dont Touch me for fucks sake unless we are in that mood.
10. Someone who hates humans and hate being touched in most situations but not all like me.

Prefer No have to:
Between 5'6-5'10
Fit
Funny
Likes original hip hop like Eminem 2pac.. not those fake ones like Tyga.
Work on something they are passionate about.
Have goals in life.
Not super pale and not Ginger hair. (PREFERENCE)

Be honest, if you were my boyfriend (and future husband) and she gave you all this trouble, on a 1-10 scale how much would you dislike her?

- Not being invited to a social gathering with the excuse of ''oh my husband's friends are coming, it's better for you to just not come''
- Bad-mouthing you to others, super loud enough for your boyfriend or girlfriend to hear and you actually overheard it once over the phone
- Constantly nagging your partner to break up with you
- Making slight sarcastic gestures whenever you used to visit your partner
- Arguing with you and insulting you right on your partner's b-day to the point of making you cry in anger
- On your partner's b-day, she literally forces you to buy something saying ''ok then do something on his/her b-day, proof to me that you love him/her''
- Bragging and laughing to others about how she made you cry
- Saying ''you're only crying crocodile tears'' and being so inconsiderate how much she just hurt you
- Overall meddling too much in the relationship
- Offering you a fake apoloigizing over the phone and you know it's fake
- Years later, making some insulting comments on your facebook
- Lastly unfriending you and blocking you from her facebook