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I know that my efforts used to be fairly inconsistent when I was younger but I've been putting in a lot of time & effort to improve at the things I care about and I can proudly say that I've been putting in daily effort with exercise & art for over a year since the pandemic started (I've been working on many other things as well)

With that being said, the progression has been pretty slow and I find that a little demoralizing because of my age. I'm almost ready to start performing music live again now that things are starting to open up where I'm from but I still lack the ability to put on a compelling show solo (I have hard time singing & playing an instrument simultaneously) so lucky I'm working with another person and I can focus on just one or the other when it comes to live playing.

My fitness and health has improved, I lost a lot weight and toned up since the pandemic started. I've been getting some compliments from guys and girls I know but still haven't achieved my body goals and as well (embarrassingly enough to admit) I still struggle with getting dates even with my improved shape and current physique.

I could name other examples of areas of improvement but I'll stick with those - my point is that I'm putting in all this time & effort into these things & besides the little fulfillment I get from maintaining & accomplishing these tasks I'm still not truly succeeding or getting what I want.

So it's got me questioning my time & effort because my patience is being tested, I know I don't have forever but I can't improve fast enough, I still feel powerless as if what I'm chasing after is forever outreach and slipping away.

I don't know what else to do other than try harder but I keep coming up short.