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Whenever a man discusses masculinity women unconsciously talk him efeminate not purposefully but unwarelly
Exampl : I DON'T WEAR PINK
I only played with with cars as a kid (ooh women hate that)
I DONT CRY FOR for crap
I only talk about my feelings to the onesame who is willing to lend an early
I HATE JUSTIN BIEBER
I HATE SKINNY JEANS
I HATE THE MODERN FAG MAN BUN
I DONT DO FACIALS
I DONT WEAR THAT MAKE UP SHIT (BECAUSE I'
NOT A TV ACTOR)
I DONT DO MANICURE NEITHER PEDICURES
I DONT LIKE REALITY SHOWS
I HATE BUBBEGUM GENRE MUSIC
I getting up after knocked on the hound

Often times when I'm sitting on my porch sipping on a mojito I get lost in my thoughts about how improbable the existence is, about how there being nothing would make just as much sense as there being something.
The more I think and the more questions I find for which I can't even begin to form answers the more everything around me starts to feel surreal, even the most basic things start to not making sense and you find yourself feeling like that time when you wake up delirious from a fever when even your own hands appear freaky and out of place.

At that point you kind of slap yourself to get back into reality to watch your favorite tv show or youtube in order to take your mind off things.

Do you experience a similar state of "mindfucking" yourself?
Feeling a little freaked out, not necessarily because your thoughts are evil but because you feel like you have just gave your brain an error?

I was in a marriage for 4 years and got a divorce because I don't think I really ever loved her. She was my first girlfriend and I joined the military where failed young marriages are all to common. Well shortly after I started having sex with, what seemed like, a bunch of women to me. I would use them and leave them, giving one of my past friends Chlamydia. Then I met a girl on a dating app, let's say her name is Jane. Me and Jane talked all the time, she would come over and stay the night. I would come up to her work for lunch and she would come to my soccer games. Well fast forward like 2 months, I asked her where the relationship was goin, like boyfriend and girlfriend. She said that her career goals didn't fit in with my life right now and she doesn't want to be tied down. She told me that she didn't see us goin any further, I said ok and we didn't talk for a few days. Now we are talking again after she reached out to me, but she is telling about these guys she's goin on dates with and having sex with. Whenever we talk she gives me 1 to 2 word answers. I feel like I'm goin insane over here, I don't know what to do. My brother says my life is like a reality tv show but I think I might be crazy.