Search Results: its hard to find a good man

Here's the pattern in life:

drawn to older women since I was young. Ran from young girls. If someone is needy and hurt, I get drawn in to help (as long as I feel safe), help them find a way out and get better, soothe. Rescue them. A white night!

I've been drawn into wounded and needy women so many times lost count and some long term. Some men too, but men are not as interesting and a tough case. I enjoy the psychological challenge of rescuing a soul. I do this while keeping healthier ones and people at a distance, emotionally. Fear of intimacy. did that for a long time, getting better.

I feel good being a servant to others, a helper, and often would sacrifice myself, time, priority for someone else. For example, I might skim on food, but I'd give someone money to buy a car who is totally broke. I'll buy used to save, but give freely to those who don't love me back.

What I've summized on how I got here is this:
* Possibly a lack of nurturing as a child - my mom I think was distant at times, although I recall her being very caring as well.
* I was emotionally abused as a child and sensitive. just not strong, so I built up a defense to not let people in. I did not like people and stayed emotionally distant from them. After I turned Christian, I had strong empathy for others and turned my wound into a desire to help others... in effect nurturing myself I think. After I started to understand myself and people, I turned that to want to help others get to a better place. It's a lot of what I think about.

Understanding oneself is hard, hard to get perspective. Have you had something like this and how did you get to a heathy life balance?

Ladies, how would you tolerate being with a mate that skimps on themselves (penny pinch clothes, food at times, used cars and stuff) but can be drawn into other people/women emotionally to help them and give freely and happily? Assume he doesn't cheat physically, but others can get priority of his heart and mind easily.

In my early 20s. Most people think I’m really confident. I’ve had a hard look at myself. I’m insecure sometimes.
Listen I hate women. I’m staying single even if I meet someone. They’re so shallow and evil (not all). I’m a good guy, calm with some humour with interests.

I’m good looking 7-8/10 is the feedback I’ve gotten. I receive daily looks from some girls. I’m guaranteed to be super rich (for reasons I’m not going into). I’m very lucky, Slim not skinny, but building muscle nicely. Also very tall 6ft2. Well dressed. Very highly educated and ambitious. I also have a big penis 7.2 inch long and thick. Im talking about all this as these are the things you crappy shallow women care about today.

Yet even then with all these things it’s not good enough. When I had tinder every girl reply’s to me like a robot. Women have no personality to offer. I would only have dated a girl I find beautiful and kind and independent but I think that’s fair and simple.

I’m a virgin (wouldn’t change it), I just wanted to find an amazing girl to get into a relationship.
But most of you women are next level shallow, like you have nothing to offer me it seems. Most of you couldn’t even tell me one thing interesting about you.

My ethnicity doesn’t work in my favour though. Where I spend time my ethnic group is so rare so I’m left with white/Hispanic women. I guess interracial dating is still not ideal but I think it’s still considered a bad thing?

Maybe it’s narcissistic but how could a girl not want me? Honestly I can’t explain how shocked I am like sometimes I question myself like have I got my ‘identity’ wrong. But I haven’t. I self reflect and am critical about myself. Overly critical inside. I’m trying to learn to block women out of my life, I’ve gotten too far and succeeded too much to waste time.

Also. You’re girls. You will not understand, you’ve never been a man just like how I don’t understand about women.

For example I’m normally a sucker for dark hair on a girl. Find it really attractive and we’d look good together, but the odd time a blonde has come out the blue and made me question. If I wasn’t taken I would consider her.
Another example I thought I liked really kind girls and instead I go for girls with a bit of a juicy personality it’s hard to explain.