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I'm 24 and I only had one girlfriend. I never really got over her. I'm not a cry baby of someone that comes off as a pansy but I'm just honestly beginning to lose hope. I don't have a career. I do work as a personal trainer though. I love with roommates in a nice place. It's not that im lazy because I've attempted and failed so many things. I have a learning disability. I'm not stupid but a university setting is very difficult for me. It doesn't impact my social skills either. I'm going to school but I'm miserable. You'd never know unless I told you.

I think I'm decent looking. I have a great body. I'm a great conversationalist once you get me going but I'm introverted. I have friends but I tend to ignore them these days not even going out. I'm really just losing it and im only getting older. At night it really hits me. I think I'm a pretty badass cool person once you get to know me.

I want to get married and have kids. I want to all that stuff. I'm just getting older and losing hope. All my friends are younger than me so it's a constant reminder. Girls my age are already letting themselves go. Younger girls probably aren't interested.

About 2 years ago I met this really dope chick on campus whom we share a lot of the same friends. we had a lot of similarities and I fell for her pretty hard. I never felt this strongly about someone before and I never told her exactly how I felt. but there were times where how I felt blinded me from the things she would do. our first date she had hickies on her neck and when I asked her about it she eventually just said she went downtown I guess. in retrospect probably not my place to ask as it was only the first date, but it just bugged me. despite her being a terrible texter, I still enjoyed having her in my life. this only went on for about a month and then there was this time where I highly believed she used me to buy her alcohol because she wasn't 21.

it hurt that someone would do that so I distanced myself from her without saying a word and never texted her. she didn't text back. after a few months of working on myself I thought about hitting her up to finally tell how I feel. we talked again and she said she's sorry that I felt that way and was saying that wasn't the case. she was dating someone else then so I moved on from her.

but later we met again going to the movies just a few months ago recently with our mutual friends. it honestly felt like nothing changed when we were talking. I thought that maybe things changed between us (like this time I'd be more upfront with her about my feelings instead of keeping them to myself), so I sent her a message how I missed us taking and wanted to see if we can just start talking again as friends. but she didn't answer me.

A few days ago she added me on Facebook. if we talked, I'm unsure how I feel about letting her get so close, but I do want to talk to her because no matter how much I deny it I still love her. what should I do?