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Now, I hated middle school with a passion. The best day of middle school was my very last week. I didn't really enjoy my high school days, during them I just stayed in the house, went to school, and the process was repeated daily. I always spent all my time laying in bed. A lot of kids were going to prom, parties, Disneyland and going out with friends while I just stayed at home. I was bullied a lot. Everyday I honestly hate going to school and I wish to God that I could skip going to school today but unfortunately I promised my mom I'd go so I have no choice. I hate it. I also hate being in the house all day, doing nothing but watching others have fun. My parents often tell me to stay in my room and at school I'm just doing schoolwork and I hate it, I've been feeling better lately but I'm trying to find an excuse on why I can't go to school today. :/ even though I hate my high school, hate living with my parents, I feel like in a few years I'll eventually miss high school a ton and look back on the good times I had in high school even though I hate school right now. People say you don't know how good you have it, until it's gone and people say that high school is the best time of your life, or they're jealous of kids in high school, and high school is where you have a bunch of friends. i know of several girls who tried to kill themselves while in high school, as well as guys because depression was eating them alive. Nothing really good happened to me in high school and I don't see why I'd miss it.