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I have borderline personality disorder. being in a relationship is very hard for me. i fear commitment but crave it at the same time. i have pushed my boyfriend from 1,5 years away from me because it was hard for me to trust him due to my disorder. i went no contact for 2 months and he kept asking me to take him back. we broke up December 5 2015. two weeks ago he send me a message that he wanted to move on because he didn't think we would ever be together again because i never answered his texts. he also told me he was always gonna love me and that he really wanted to be my friend. he was very heartbroken and i felt very guilty. i never wanted to hurt him so bad , i thougt i wasn't good enough for him since i never trusted him and my disorder was getting in the way. yesterday i messaged him to meet me agian and maybe watch a movie. he told me that this wouldn't be a good idea since he only wanted a friendship which i didn't understand because he missed me so much. he told me that a week ago he has been in a relationship with some other girl. it crushed my heart to pieces. he told me he missed me just two days before his new relationship. it doesn't make sense to me. then he started getting mad because i didn't want him as a friend because i just couldn't handle that. i didn't answer because he was soooo mad. i went to bed and then suddenly he messaged me again... he blamed me for the pain he was feeling again because of my text. i called him and i told him he can't have us both and then he chose her. i told him to please not contact me again then. he agreed.
i'm so confused. do i ever have a chance again with this guy? does he really love this girl? i have never had a connection with someone like that before. he is everything to me. my best friend and lover and i just miss him so much , it is so sad. i went to therapy for him and i really wanted to work it out. thank you for reading :) please tell me what you think, it could really help me.

I have been in 3 serious relationships. Talked about marriage, kids, commitment, and love. My exes was always the first to say "I love you". I never did out of fear that they didn't feel the same way. Later turns out i was right. My exes confessed that they were never in love with me, even though we talked about the possibility of getting engaged.
I was just wondering, if you're in a serious relationship with your SO, do you mean it when you say you love them? Or you just say it because you know it's expected?

Weve been dating for a year now, and we are really serious about each other. I want to marry him. I've never wanted to marry someone before. I have never had such a connection with anyone in my entire life. And he really wants to get promise rings (2 promises- for marriage, and no intercourse til we are married).
I'm asking this question, because, I have some abandonment issues. In previous relationships, I never let myself get truly attached. I was in a two year relationship, and when I broke up with him, I didn't even cry... I was that unattached.
But this guy... He completely swept me off my feet. He is my best friend, we laugh together for hours on end. We connect on such a deep level, I can tell how he's feeling without even looking at him. I am finally in love. He looks at me like I am absolute gold, that I am a treasure, an angel. He calls me his queen and princess and takes such good care of me.
And if he left me, I'd be so devastated. I don't want to take this step, and then be left wishing I had stuck to blocking people out.
I am in therapy and doing really, really well. I trust him. But a tiny voice is nagging at me, and I'm afraid of commitment.
Because of this we intend on moving slow. First promise rings, a long engagement, and then finally marriage. I think I'm ready. I love him and I know he loves me. I'm ready to step out of this fear of commitment and this is such a small step that, I think I can do it, and I want to. But I need a third party opinion. So, what do you think?