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(Read all) Yes, it has gotten to the point where I'm asking strangers on the internet for life advice. Anyways, I'm having a super hard time making a decision, and it has been getting inside my head, so I wanted some insight. So:
In 6th grade and beginning of 7th (I'm a freshman now, which I know is very young), I fell into some really bad girl drama which turned into bullying, which started making me depressed (I know it sounds exagerrated that a 12yr old would be depressed), and I, being spineless, let them run me out of the school. By the first month of 7th grade, I had dropped out and moved to online school. Back then, I had started riding horses, and when I started doing online school, my trainer offered me an internship of sorts. So for 2 years, I have been doing online school, and have gotten super competitive for horse-back riding. I ride at least 6 horses a day, which is equivalent for an athlete to practice for at least 6 hours everyday, and have gotten amazing opportunities. My trainer thinks I could be really big in this sport. This helped me find out how to be myself, and am a totally different person. Now the hard part. Right before freshman year, I decided I wanted to try public school again. So, I told everyone that is what I was doing, but then I, being spineless, started regretting the decision and backed out, because I wanted to keep riding 6 horses a day and try to get an opportunity to show at some of the bigger shows. Since then, I keep wondering what it would be like to be a normal kid. Then I found out about this early college program my trainer's kid did, where you can basically graduate with an associate's degree and after a semester of high school classes, you are basically in college and get to schedule things for yourself. But for the first semester it is 9-3, and lots of homework. So I would only practice for an hour, maybe 2, and it is really important to me to keep getting better. But is it worth it for flexible scheduling later?

We started dating in high school. We had our problems but were still crazy about each other after we graduated. Things starting getting harder going into college. He is a real social person and always has a female best friend. and would upset me that he would not see how some of his actions were upsetting. So Junior yr of college, things got so hard, and he called a break, because we needed to work on ourselves, and some internal issues that he thought I needed to seek help with. it was hard and desvastating but I had no choice to agree to it, but he still wanted to talk to me and act like we were together it was so hard and confusing. After a semester of that we broke up for real, but still loved each other, it was just getting to hard and he later said he did it for us. So 6 months later he contacts me wanting to how I am doing. We Started talking again and were back to being happy again. It was amazing and perfect all over again, he even waited for me to be ready actually start things up again and waited for sex again for a good 4/5 months. I Thought we were ready. But another 5 months later, more problems started to appear jealously, time, and some other old problems. For example, me wanting alone time, and not always wanted to hang with his friends was always a problem. it wasn't like that at first, but he got a job where he time was very limited, I tried to be as understanding as I could, but it was hard and painful. Ok so here I am almost a year after the second time around and he wants to break it off again saying that he doesn't have the time with his new job, the old problems are coming back, and he's not happy right now. I told him I will do anything, I dont want to lose him, but his mind is made up saying its just not a good time right now, however also saying that I would know when the right time to fight again would be. he's not talking to me like before, but is not ignoring me and cutting me off completely. Is the fight worth it?