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Back in the beginning of 2015, I was suicidal because I couldn't find another virgin to lose my virginity to. I was overdosing on my meds and kept going in and out of hospitals.

I was on this dating platform, OKCupid, and this girl messaged me. She contacted me first and I started talking to her. I explained my situation and she didn't believe me. She then avoided me.

I ended up being hospitalized again for a suicide attempt. After I was released, I messaged her and sent her a picture of my hospital wristband as proof that I was hospitalized. She then believed me and we started messaging again.

Come to find out she was 16. I was 20 at the time, but looking at the state laws in the state she resided, she was of legal age for sex.

We started talking more and more and even snapchatted. After a few months, we agreed to meet up. She was hesitant at first but she decided to go through with it.

I drove 7 hours all the way to her state to meet her. We walked the mall, had an ice cream, then we went to the hotel and we took each other's virginities. I even still have the pictures of the blood stained sheets when I popped her cherry.

The day after, we spent the entire day at the amusement park. I fell in love with her I thought. It was all affection and holding hands and kissing. I thought I found my first girlfriend. Later before we departed, she told me she did not want anything serious it shattered my heart.

I stopped talking to her for two weeks. Then I messaged her again and she said she was glad I contacted her and she had locked herself in her room crying at one point.

We started talking again, and at one point she told me I was the best guy she ever met. Although she led me on a little, she said she did not want a relationship. I was crushed.

Later, I started to question if she really was a virgin and even called her up crying. She reassured me I was her first.

Eventually I made her mad and she told me to never talk to her again.

I am a 25 year old 5'6" male and I never had a girlfriend. I have only had sex once in my life when I was 20 (she was 16). We both lost our virginities to each other but she never wanted a relationship with me. I was thrown in jail and have a stalking conviction on my record all because I brought her a cookie cake around 7-8 months later trying to ask her out to her prom (she was now 17 at the time).

I once tried to make a relationship happen with this one other girl, but she ended up becoming a transgender (became a dude). I can't believe I made out with her one time.

Like I said I am 25 and never had a girlfriend. I only had sex once in my life and it was back in 2015.

Not only am I short and never had a girlfriend, I also lost my career. I had to voluntarily surrender my EMT license (it was going to be revoked anyways).

I still live at home and on disability.

I also have an Autistic Spectrum Disorder and other mental health issues.

I have been hospitalized over 13 times in my lifetime, all starting from adolescence.

I have been trying to learn programming and web development for over 3 years diligently. I am still an ameatur and suck at what I do.

I cannot get ahead in life it seems in the romance or the career department.

I only want a decently attractive woman without a romantic past (meaning no previous boyfriends or romantic bonds), but I will likely remain alone because I will never find that I feel.

I am failing at life. Period.

I am 25 and never had an actual girlfriend.

I had a "quasirelationship" that lasted a week, but it was awkward and she did not reciprocate feelings back. Plus, I was 19 or 20 and she was like 15 or 16 at the time. She ended up coming out of the closet as a transgender man. Now she is a dude. It is weird telling people I made out with a girl that later became a dude.

I ended up making out with her when we were friends. She was 16 and I was 20, but we were drunk. She blames me for everything that happened that day and resents me. She blames me for being hospitalized for her mental health problems, and even wrote an emotional poem on how much she resents me.

I also lost my virginity to another 16 year old girl when I was 20, but she never wanted a relationship with me. Really, she was a stranger.

I also briefly dated a girl but we were never in a relationship. I thought she was ugly and always questioned whether or not I would develop feelings for her.

That is about it.

I am only wanting a woman without a previous boyfriend or romantic history. I doubt I will find that.

1. Am 25 years old
2. 5 feet 6 inches in height
3. Overweight at the moment weighing in the 220s (working on losing the weight)
4. On social security disability and unemployed
5. Lives at home still
6. I am a self taught amateur programmer at the moment
7. I am enrolled in uni and start classes on Tuesday
8. I lean conservative politically.
9. I voted for Donald Trump and will again
10. I am southern (come with the accent and everything)
11. I have Aspergers and mental health issues (they are improving overtime)
12. I have a criminal conviction of stalking and harassment (I served 3 years probation for it)
13. I have been hospitalized over 13 times in my life involuntarily
14. I still crush on high school girls
15. I am a loving, giving person who would fall madly in love when I do
16. I am not a virgin. I lost my virginity at age 20 to a 16 year old girl who was also a virgin. She never wanted anything to do with me after that.
17. I never had an actual girlfriend. While I am not a sexual virgin, I am a relationship virgin.

I seek the following:
I seek an attractive girl 17 or older (but probably at least 18) who has never had a romantic bond before. Meaning no previous boyfriends or even male best friends whom she was close to and had feelings for in her youth. That is the main requirement. Essentially, I want a girl that has never had her first love before. This has nothing to do with her sexual past, but everything to do with who she shared her heart with before.

I prefer (but not necissarily a requirement) a shy girl. A girl who is submissive and cute would be nice.

Met this girl (24) online who moved to my city 2 years ago for work and things moved fast. One 3 hour dinner at a restaurant & I got the impression that she was a complete "goody two shoes." We had so many values in common... so I thought :/
2nd date she invited me over and we slept together, which caught me off guard. She initiated everything, but I went with it b/c it felt special. I didn't finish and she said "I'm sorry I'm not very good at this" which got me thinking she had not been with many people.
2 wks later we were in a relationship & the only thing I knew about her past was her one and only 9 month relationship & some dating that didn't work out. A week later at 11:30pm she gets a missed call & text from a guy saying "Hey, I miss you." She explained it was a guy she dated earlier in the year. No big deal she didn't even reply.

A week ago and a text form her ex for a valid reason created another awkward situation, which led to me asking dangerous questions. How old she was when she lost her virginity & how many guys she had slept with? I didn't think I would get unsavory answers, but I did.

She lost her V at 20/21 (not a big deal), told me I was the 8th guy she had slept with & the last guy was 4/5 months before me. With her only being 24 & a 9 month relationship in there I did the math. From the time she broke up with her ex there was an 18 month period where she slept with 6 guys. Very unsavory info, but it gets worse... 2 of them were one night stands where she invited the guys over to her apmt the very first time, the other 4 she slept with after only 2-4 dates and one turned into a friends with benefits situation for 2 weeks :/

We have already BOTH fallen for each other hard and I'm devastated. She feels AWFUL, said she was lonely & admits the mistakes & how stupid she was. I feel like she was only after sex, had no respect for herself, didn't learn from the mistakes & am having a hard time seeing her as the same person I thought she was.