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How many times do you come across a post and it's some girl explaining why nice guys are bad, bad boys are good, blah, blah, blah and you'll see the male equivalent bashing some arch typal traditional man as a toxic male epitome and that the good male puts ladies first blah blah blah. It's everywhere. It's as prevelant as the sloganeering, you know when some clueless jerk picks up some culty mantra cliche off a pop culture forum "men suicide rates blah blah blah" completely disingenuous, just a layer to throw over some BS feelings. The two are just two sides of the same coin really. It's the person trying to artificially construct a false pretense to justify themselves. Notice the bottom line usually says it all people. "Nice guys, you aren't man enough!" = "You are not even" = "I want more" It's a justification and it's achieved by rationalization. The "not man enough" bit is nothing more than an illusion to trick your mind into missing whats actually being said, hypergamy. You'll see this all the time, when people start to crumble when they are trying to create false reasoning, you'll see logic go out the window, giant leaps in thought and articulation, you'll be looking at a picture that looks like it was shot by a tommy gun.

Not saying you should hate anybody. Its a natural mechanism to the human. No one likes it but its there to protect people from their own innate realizations. They don't want to be hypergamous, they just really feel tempted by it. So much that they say "nice guys blah blah blah" its obviously stupid. Women in their best state of mind dont want "a bad boy" a bad boy is somebody who is either deeply traumatized or is a sociopath. They are everything a man isn't.

You think so?

I remember when i was a little boy i would walk around with my toys got my boys around me life was easy, life was safe now i'm running around got nobody i can embrace, now i can’t even face myself, somebody save me, right now i hate me. Somebody help me. why not just kill me

What is all this shit i been going through outside im holding true, but inside im dying without this brew. What's wrong with me, can't you see. Your the problem, your the bad guy and i can't try, im so done with this relationship, we saw how far it gets, but now its all cries and slits.
I don't know what i'm going to do anymore i gotta go through that door, but somehow i always stay for more. My soul is poor, spend all my days with alcohol and im on the floor. I can't go through this anymore.

Goodbye, i gotta save my insides,

i don't know where i’m going, but i'll figure it out, without a doubt you were bad for me i couldn't breathe, i couldn't sleep, i couldn't eat. You bit me with your teeth after that you had me on your leash. You were a beast. 666 i was your feast. my mind says no it can't be you, it says it was me. But in real-ity, that's not true, and i know that, but i'm still caught up on you. And that's what kills me, thats what fills me with rage, depression going insane in the membrane, pills popping so i can keep these thoughts at bay, suicide like its a fan if so i’m at the stage, 12 steps for my ways, yet i run away everytime, ignorance is sublime but i Waste it away on these dimes. tell me whats wrong with.