I just want to take a moment and say to everyone who thinks they are better than me and treat me like dirt "because you can". I don't think you understand how what you say effects others. You have no right to do this, you don't know what they've been through. All my life, I've been called a disappointment, an accident, a screw up, by the ones I have been told to trust. I am told they are here for me and no matter what they love me. How sentimental, right? Yes at that point in time. Growing up, I thought there was something wrong with me. I didn't belong here, no one wanted me, my mom took me from my dad and told me all these lies about his family. I had trouble with my sexuality and when I found it, I was "shamed" for it. I was told that this oh so wonderful god, made Adam and Eve, boy and girl. That I was broken for liking girls and guys. I matured early so MY FAMILY and bullies and random guys I didn't know would point out that I had a big chest. I have amazing friends who try reminding me that I am a great person, but that doesn't stop the voices that say im a fuck up that doesn't belong. So yes to all those out there, YES i admit it you're better, I won't amount to you. To all those that hate their life and want to leave it YES I DO UNDERSTAND the struggles. I am still here. I had friends who threatened to commit suicide, I know people who have unfortunately seen people get killed or have friends who took their life. I have anxiety, I get scared that one day I will have no one. I am here for people but it seems when I need them they disappear. I have been abused Physically and verbally. I have been used in numerous ways. I've gone though many relationships female and male. I lost my virginity to someone who I didn't have feelings for, I've been forced to do things. I do panic, and flinch and cry and laugh out of fear, but I do have friends that tell me they would be lost without me. I have had these thoughts of taking my life, but I hate to see others in pain, everyone who did care for me would be hurt. Yes, times may seem rough, but I am here to say your not the only broken one in this world who is trying to make it through. If you dont want to stay living for yourself do it for those who care for you. I have seen the strongest people made of stone, fall and crumble unable to be put back because a loved one took their life. Yes to you this may be the answer, you won't hurt anymore. But what about those who do care and who are there, once you leave they will no longer have you. A piece of them will be forever missing. You may think leaving this world fixes everything, but in reality it will break all those who loved you. Please for those who care, and love you. Believe me It will get better, it does get better.