Search Results: sick of being single

I'm almost 22. Being "in love" or in a relationship is so foreign to me. I'm introverted and independent, and quite picky... I'm very attractive, visually... Catching men's eyes has never been an issue, but keeping their interest or me keeping interest is where it all falls apart. I fear I turn men off because I'm into dark things and am a bit creepier. I'm also honest and upfront with most things. I've had guys tell me, (after maybe seeing them for a few weeks) like "see, when you say that or do that, I just wish you weren't SO weird," or they'll be silent and awkwardly laugh, or at first I'll get compliments from guys who tell me I'm so different and interested in things they've never heard of, and then I think they lose interest. I've also had guys fake interests or being weirder to attract me.. One first date I had a guy show me a creepy movie, or they'll send me things thinking it's what I like. And it turns me off because I know it isn't them. I'm a kind person.. I'm not going to change my interests or who I am either, but what if I never meet my match? I'm sick of being single all the time. It's such a bore 🙄😒

I have feelings for my close friend, and during the summer he hasn't really been keen on hanging out with me or even having a conversation with me through text. I'm always initiating contact and I'm getting sick of it. We would text/hang out everyday last semester. Maybe he met someone. A bunch of guys have been asking me out, and I finally decided to give one of them a chance since I'm sick of being treated like I'm not desirable. We went out today. I'm kind of mad at my friend right now, and I plan on not responding the next time he texts me. Sometimes I feel like he's using me. Only wants to hang out when he says, calls me over to help him with homework or talk about his problems. Not really here for me in return. But then there're times when he's super protective and seems like he truly cares about me. When my parents visit (we have a house here which I live in while I go to college, so they come once in a while to deal with the gardening& stuff) he wants to dine with them & I. He gets jealous of my other male friends. He's so confusing, he gives me a headache. As I mentioned briefly, I went on a date today, and it went well. I have to figure things out with my friend before I get into a relationship though, because i don't want to lose him from my life. I'm not interested in the guy I went on a date with. At all. I'm just a bit tired of being single.
Guys on here/my best friend (who's a guy) have been telling me I should tell him how I feel before I see other guys, but I haven't because I'm scared af.