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I actually hate dancing so much, because my girlfriend loves it so much and gets very enthusiastic. I dance a little bit but I can’t all night. She gets really upset when I don’t. She always forces me to and compares to other couples. I never compare her to give me no head and I always give her head. I enjoy dancing but passionately instead of acting goof balls to embarrass myself and get judged. I enjoyed dancing before I met her because I was confident and got on well with ladies until her and her friends joking told me I’m terrible which I am haha but it hurts. Sometimes they tell me just to stop

I'm turning 21 soon, I'm living with my parents, currently unemployed, still working on my driver's licence.
Sometimes I feel depressed about this and feel like a pos.
I was brought up the wrong way in life. Had no good role model, bullied as a child, grew up in a poor family, lived with mental issues all my life.
I was told not to compare myself to ithers but I tend to brcause it gives me hope. When my btother was my age he was in prison and when my sister was my age she was on drugs, and both had children at 17. Neither had a driver's license at 21 either. My siblings are just a few that I tend to do this with.
I do this to remind myself that I could be worse off and to be greatful for what I do have and not be depressed on what I don't have.
I may not be in the best position in life but at least I have no children, $0 in debt (didn't go to college), no serious addictions (which runs in my family), a mother who's still willing to support me, no criminal record, etc.
I'm taking steps to improve my life, and positive reinforcement is one of them.

P. S. I don't say anythibg to anyone's faces, this is just what I think in my own head.