Search Results: go back to that very first person

I am brand new and I wanted an unfamiliar place to say what I really feel about myself. This subject is sensitive and easily angers. Not suitable really for under 18. I am a 2 time SO (look it up) both in some way related to minors. I recently read where some people thought a 2nd offense like mine should carry the death penalty, by hanging within a year or 2. This shocked me and firghtened me initially. But after thinking about it with the best effort to be objective I agree. I am lucky with the year in county jail I begin serving in less than 2 weeks. As terrible as that will be in the segragated unit with others like me. My first offense was about 12 years ago and i won't go into too much detail. Involved physical intimate contact under with under 16 but over 13. Second involved a blog and reg non illicit pics I found online that were chosen cuz they were shot from back to highlight anatomy. Made into collage with inappropriate comments. Victim from 1st case suffers greatly and 2nd case just happen to find its way to actual model and family. Suffering nightmares. Im a good person in every other way but my actions make me terrible. No remorse or change can negate the demand for severe punishment for suffering I caused. Next time in my state likely long prison with little chance of parole. I will rehabilitate or get myself flagged over something minor if this year doesn't change me. Ill never harm another and I hope I can live up to my pledge. Im so very sorry I wasn't given a just penalty for my crime. But a year in county jail is a nightmare I surely have earned.

As silly as it may sound or be, but i truly do believe that even being in a relationship with someone requires some type of experience.

So yes, you'll have to go through one, two, five, or a few breakups, in order for you to actually realize what it is you're looking for, or aren't looking for in a partner.
Because often times we tend to think that we know what we want or what we
re looking for, when ultimately that isn't quite the case, especially if you're very young and step into a relationship with someone for the first time.
You tend to think that you'll be with this person forever.
That he or she will/might be the only one but, down the line isn't.
I'm not saying it isn't possible but, the possibility of you being with the first ever person, second, or third for the rest of your life, with no cheating, breaks being involved, or breaking up and getting back together for the 2nd or 3rd time is a 10% possibility.

It's not how we want it to but, fortunately, it's how the Grand Design has designed things to be