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At Christmas a friend of mine said that she no longer wanted to be friends as although I was a lovely guy I was very self pitying and had a victim mentality (largely due to being bullied through childhood). This really shocked me, she was one of my only friends irl and as a result I tried to change things and got some professional counselling too. I feel very much better in myself now and more positive. I posted this and tagged her in it on tumblr. How does it sound? Should I expect a reply?

"That feeling when you are overcoming your demons and are getting out of a negative mindset that has seemingly been a part of you for years.

The absolute icing on the cake for me now I am feeling more positive would be a second chance at properly getting to know a person who was nothing but a positive influence on me; in fact somebody I looked up to and thought of as a kinda role model.

In spite of the fact that I tested your patience to the absolute limit and often made you angry/upset you were always there for me and I am grateful for that. I hope that you might give me one last chance to show you I have changed and become a better person and to make up for my poor behaviour in the past. I really think you are a great person and believe I was lucky to have you in my life for the short time I did. I don’t know what else to say really Its hard to convey how sorry I was to lose your ‘friendship’ as I perceived it and how much of a hole you left in my life. I still haven’t found anyone with half your open mindedness on all sorts of issues and to be honest I don’t think I ever will. I feel more comfortable with myself now and I hope that will translate to you and others too.

I can't say any more than I have already but it comes down to this really. You supported me through the bad times in my life maybe unknowingly sometimes just by being there so its only fair that I invite you to share in the good…."