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I feel bad after rejecting someone because I have been on the receiving end. It hurts but it is essential. Especially someone I have some respect for or value in life. But I observed that the rejections turn out well for the guys because they move on and find someone better suited than me. I feel happy that I didn’t keep any of them on the hook and let them free to meet new people.
I think it is the right thing to do, rejecting upfront, rather than resorting to friendzoning or other meek methods of rejection. It’s a different story if you are interested in the other person but not ready to commit. But if you’re not into someone in particular and there’s no hope in the future, clear it out. It does hurt the other person but you’re not obliged to say yes just to make the other person happy and deprive him of a chance to meet other girls who would be interested right? Rather I’d feel more guilty for leading someone or giving him hope rather than directly rejecting him.

When I was 16, with the help of a guy and his cousin I've framed my older sister's then fiance for cheating and something else. I did everything to make my sister be single again and spend time with her like old times.

Now I'm 24 and after having 3 miscarriages in a row, I get told I'm infertile as a result of an incident years ago, with very slim chance of carrying a baby full term. This goes back to when I had the horseback riding accident shortly after my 18th b-day. I was normal before. Basically I'll probably never be able to experience giving birth, all my years will be wasted till all my eggs died. This indeed is the worst news ever.

Even though I've already admitted in all in early 2020, before knowing my condition (trying to make things right) this is my karma/punishment isn't it?