Search Results: how do you learn to trust

Since I was young my family never trust me even if I have been a good daughter. I studied hard, graduate honors and even have good jobs.

Since I was young, my family prohibited me going out especially late at night. And, whenever I do they always yelled at me and worst my dad beat me up and have major bruises. I grow very shy person because they never expose me to people.

I never had boyfriend of my entire life due to my family strictness until such time I met foreign man. I know he really loves me but he had an international historical record of stealing money 5 years ago. When my learned about it, they immediately destroyed our relationship and even if I told them not to touch him. They ask cops to arrest him for such crime. They even want to make false accusations such as raping which is not true. But I didn't support to them and that makes them more mad at me.
My innocent best friend was also scolded by my family and they destroyed our friendship.

My family is now getting worse. They grounded me , destroyed my door, steal my computer and cellphone and spying all my messages, I cannot go out at house and making Me like a Maid. They have invaded my personal privacy. Even if I stop meeting my boyfriend, they don't believe in me and worst they want me to stop working. I don't want to stop working because this is only my source of income and to be honest I can really live alone. They already destroyed everything my relationship, friendship and now my work?

If I leave home, my foreign boyfriend dont have anymore money and I am afraid my dad will ask for arrest him or worst kill him. That is why I allowed myself being disrespected by my own family.

If I leave I was also thinking about my boyfriend. What If my family would ask police to arrest or kill him. Especially that he don't have any place to transfer because he don't have money.

What should I do?, please advise