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During the summer I went to my moms cousins husbands funeral. I didn’t really think too much of it since I never really knew his name until 30 minutes before he died.

He was an extreme diabetic who never really took care of himself. He needed surgery because without it he would’ve been dead in months. I’m not sure what happened but I know it involved skin not staying together or something but he died during surgery. Luckily for him he was under heavy anesthetic and went painlessly.

at the wake I had this feeling like “holy fuck 40ish years gone. Just like that.” I still think about that sometimes.

but at ceremony at the church (my moms side is all catholic) I remember the services and watching his family walk back down the aisle and his parents were sobbing. When we were actually putting him in the ground when I noticed his kids. He had two daughters and a son. The girls were trying but failing to hold back their tears. The son, I think, was too young to fully grasp what’s happening. I’ve seen a lot of things. But that’s something I never want to have too see again.

Overall I felt horrible for his family most of all. I also felt bad for him too because he’s person and his life has ended. But I think it was hardest on the family.

Rip Craig Walters
1973-2018