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I was really excited when my business cards got to our house. Suddenly I remembered that this means I'll have to go out and actually talk to people and socialize. I hate having to talk to other people. I always feel like I'm a burden to everyone and normally people don't like me like that. Especially in high school when no one likes me or gave a shit about me. I try to avoid as much contact with other people as much as possible. Only talk when your spoken too, try to avoid others... It's hard for me to even go out with family and have fun.

Now my new business I'm trying to start up is forcing me out of my bubble that I created for myself and I fucking hate it... I don't even know how to deal with it... I used to be a social butterfly and I always did want to start a business but I didn't think it would eventually pressure me into being more social... I don't want to have to talk to people I don't know...

I really like this guy I work with. WE are pretty much the work versions of Whitney and Bobby with out the drugs. Every since we found out our feelings for each other ( through Mutual friends) Things have been tense. One of my co workers called us out on our bs and said I swear you guys can never have a normal conversation. We tease each other but we are always there for each other. When I’m mad at him he will chase me down tryna figure out why or ask my friend why I’m mad Or when he hurts hisself I’m usually the first one to care and is there. I’m the only one that makes him smile or that can keep his attention more then 5 mins. Well Valentine’s Day this year I decided I would give him a hint on how I feel about him. So I saw him and quickly thought on my feet I work at the Airport and there is a Godiva store right next to my store. I went in bought chocolate samples put them in a gold baggy inside that bag I wrote a note (Listen to Queen Najia Butterflies That song explains everything and music is the only way I can express myself) well I gave it to him didn’t make a big deal out of it. At the end of the night we were walking side by side and he Started singing Ride Slow by Russ. Everytime he was around me that’s what he kept singing. Mind you ride slow is a song about taking it slow with a girl you wanna be with because you have a lot going on but you don’t wanna lose the connection with that person you literally wanna ride slow. It’s been a few months (we met in January I believe) and still nothing but intense feelings. Its like my intuition is telling me he is scared he is unsure and he is still figuring me out. I wanna get to know him outside of work and eventually love him (honestly I never believed in love at first sight till I met him ) The probably is I’m a shy Virgo who can be very introverted and extroverted he is a Leo who is very Extroverted and Extremely BOLD. Which is why I’m confused on why he hasn’t said anything yet. Is it up to me?