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I've been in a bad situation for the past few years having a LDR with my boyfirend. It really sucks and we are on the verge of breaking up.

Its so hard and mentally challenging that I've cried my self to sleep for the past few days.

There's some times that I hate my self for even thinking of wanting to break up or take a break with him.

I only have 2 years left in this country before I return. But it's already been 3 years and we only meet 3 to 4 times a year. I'm afraid that he'll change because we don't meet as often and in the end we can't find that love we once had.

I don't want to stop my studying half way through my bachelor in medicine and surgery but I also don't want to loose him.

I'm flying back to the UK next week with out telling my parents because I just want to focus my time with him and find out if we should stay together. I haven't booked a ticket back because I don't know if I'll be staying a for a few days or just one.

What ever the outcome. I probably won't be satisfied with either one. This is probably the lowest point of my life.

Don't worry. No suicidal tendencies yet...

I hope it will all be ok in the end.

For now. I only can hold on till I fly back home and face my fears or dreams.

Thanks for reading. Needed a place to let put some steam.

Not that it matters 100% but what do you think I should do?