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I meet up with this girl (through work) that I've been chatting to for 2 years via email. We finally met and she sent me this. Backstory, I live in London and she lives in Australia and I thought we had something special but now I'm just confused.

Here's the letter she sent me:
Hi. Here's the awkward me telling you the truth. I appreciate you taking time to have lunch with me. I'm not sure about you but I was a total ball of nerves because I didn't want to say something stupid to you with such sort time, so I guess I'll somewhat do it now. In the time I've got to know you over email it almost bothers me everyday that we can't hang out in person. It also sucks that when I did meet you that i admired everything about you and i want to know so much more but am afraid ill miss your presence. you made me feel so comfortable and I appreciate you for it. I was trying to hold back because I didn't want to get so personal because it again sucks we can't hang out in person for a long while. You're such a lovely person, and I knew it over email but the fact you were in real life made the whole thing so bitter sweet. I guess long story short, whoever gets to hang out with you in person is extremely lucky and I am extremely jealous of them.

Is she trying to say she doesn't want anything to do with me anymore in a polite way?

I am! I’ve never found a girl good enough for me.
I’m too good looking, too much money too everything. I’m A very lucky man in every aspect of my life!!