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Please I need help. If you have information about psychology, I need your opinion to help me analysis my character. Back in 2018 , I used to be in a relationship with a married man. I have never imagined myself to be in a relationship with a married man and I have always been against mistresses because I see them as a threat to family etc. So , I considered this married man as a friend only and nothing more but then we fell in love together , and many dramas happened from his wife’s side. I used to have mixed feelings toward his wife ( jealousy and also sympathy toward her ) . Then we broke up although we talked to each other from time to time. In 2020, I decided just to forget about him at all and I have been in a new relationship with a single young man who is my age, and I felt really guilty of what I did to my ex-boyfriend’s wife and I profoundly regretted. Then , my ex-married boyfriend came back again , and he said he missed me and he will never forget me , instead of being a great woman and learned just from the lesson because as I said I really regretted. I just like what he said to me and I didn’t block him or anything , in fact I said to him nice words too? . I don’t know what’s wrong with me and why I’m like that , at the same time , I feel jealous in my current relationship and I’m attracted to my boyfriend. Why am I like that?