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so as a five foot six and a half African American guy I have seen the worst that women can offer. Women treat me like garbage at face value. And to me it is weird because in some cases the things girls hate about me is things they don't like about themselves (my height and how dark i am for example). based off of the relationships i see they are only happy when they get what they want and what is approved by society. They never get what they need or deal with guys on their actual level. then when what they want doesn't work out they blame men for not making their fantasy come true. they call men sexiest but when given the same opportunities they make the most material choices they can make with men. what that tells me about their leadership skills is that they are along for the ride but only to get what they want. they make men feel guilty for thing that they would never do in their life for example. once in a blue moon i might get a date but a women would never marry me why? because marriage is commitment. tall men take responsibility and date short women all the time but tall or medium sized girls barley date/ marry short men. And they are quiet about this because they get what they want with no responsibility. they use men to advocate their self-esteem and make themselves look better. They can't be committed to things that don't appease other people or themselves on the material realm. even with church girls i get the worst. they judge me based off of what I look like but the problem with that is..."But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.” When deciding on men they never look to a mans heart only when he has what she physically requires. today girls have turn dating men into fashion statement were instead of matching soul wavelengths they match outfits that look good.

I've been contacting my crush for like 3 weeks time. We met on instagram. And last night she ask me when should we meet. But honestly I don't have the guts to meet her because that I felt like I'm way out of her league, plus she came from a rich family while I'm from middle class family. And she just broke up with her ex for like 2 or 3 months ago I'm not sure. Last night she said that we should be friends 1stly she said because we haven't met each other in real life. and 2nd she said that she met her ex also on IG and now she had problem in trusting guys especially from social network. So what I did was I said to her, I will contact her in 2 months time because there's so many things I want to improve my self emotionally and financial aspect. After that she replied with an angry/sad emoticons said are you serious , after that I remain silent then she replied "K". after 2 hours around 4am at my place. I text her " Women come in the name of love. Ex's left because of lust. Leaving one's heart to be torn apart. To find the right one its impossible. Yes I do like her because she's beautiful, But most of all I adore her inner values, her iron will, determination, perseverance, intuition, creativity and commitment towards her passion (she's female bodybuilder). If she can give that kind of commitment, surely she will be a great partner and a lover. I will definitely return. Not for her, not for anyone. Its for me, because I want you." After that I deleted my instagram, deleted her number and deactivated my Facebook. So guys what do you think am I doing the right thing? will she wait for me? and what do you girls think if this thing happen to you? thank you please help me :'(